Vaim Sarv is a folk musician and experimental vocalist. Her rituals combine free improvisation with noise and ancient Finno-Ugric folk song. Using portable, consumer-grade electronics and extended vocal technique, he worships spaces with unconventional acoustics and queer senses of place.

Vaim Sarv

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rocks have been embedded into my palm by a cliff as a reminder of my closeness to death 



you see, i had been callously combing through squirreltrack and leafstem shalehead and dustprint for a round opening a promise of darkness and disappearance of refuge from vigilance both human and digital 



having scoured the walls with my eyelids and toes i was still blind and so proceeded to scamper upwards over swollen veins and tectonic tissue 



vertically hurtling i glued my body to every stone, particle and branch breathlessly whispering thank you to everyone i disturbed 



and then i came to know my closeness to death in just one life moment the cliff warned me in a tongue more succinct than feeling that if i moved one step closer i would be killed 



frozen i fell onto all fours and so proceeded to lower myself down 



back to the ground i fell and finally felt my hands heavy and chest compressed 



bruised and bloody broken by violent intimacy i faltered haltingly towards a now grateful grief



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for anette, sanna, and fred



the girliness of the wasteland the maddening mäda curling around our fingers and vocal folds folding into us&nbsp; holding us and the rot the stench the pink umami excretions the drop and the drip of the cables all bunched up around the thighs studded flashing uploading and held up bound in outbound and unbounded



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the crash



and the melt



the severed strands of unceasing relentless commands and the sweat on your brow the perspiration and damp of a constant plan sidestepping and laughing off to the side&nbsp; i side ways and sideways fall on the sharpened blade of that communal swamp that is always no matter what and when unendingly tending to us



rain boots on we toddle and splash spraying with the utmost most caring and gentle disregard for the watching faces we unfaithfully face and deface via the wrong path we continue to forget we took



dear platform now that i’ve dragged you down to the river and now that we’ve both escaped the tangled center that cavernous carnivorous carnal center that sad and lonely data center now that i’ve held you down and listened to the sound of your eyes fluttering shut and the timbre of your voice change and now that we’re both a bit less lonely in that hardcore white european way i’d like to let go of the plot and the fear of the non-fact that letting go of means losing (the plot)



i’d like to let go of you with the knowledge that you’ll be back tomorrow dear platform i’d like to set you afloat let you drift in the river



dear platform now that we’ve finally touched











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until further notice celebrate everything said a sign on a house separated in many ways from the technological workers a facebook fortress&nbsp; and the salt farms &nbsp; i placed this instruction inside me and crossed a final threshold into an openly grey area it was clear to my sensory organs that ”humans” had only recently started ”caring” for this place



&nbsp; moving past emptiness and habitat i came to an edge delineated by water and fence and found 3 black cats&nbsp; siblings, with 6 yellow eyes &nbsp; they were hiding from the rain under wood fibre and plastic that someone had arranged&nbsp; miles from any dwelling their dry and precarious presence lunged at me&nbsp; 



wounded by shared fragility gazes tenuously locked we celebrated everything &nbsp;



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Vaim Sarv Vaim Sarv is a folk musician and experimental vocalist. Her rituals combine free improvisation with noise and ancient Finno-Ugric folk song. Using portable, consumer-grade electronics and extended vocal technique, he worships spaces with unconventional acoustics and queer senses of place.

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